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what father’s day feels like now

On 06/15/2025 By n.1In grief, poetry

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weather patterns

On 06/04/2025 By n.1In healing, poetryLeave a comment
a poem in lowercase titled “weather patterns” describing how the speaker feels the presence of someone they’ve lost through natural elements. they hear them in sunny stillness, feel them in wind and thunder, see them in snow, and hear their voice in the rhythm of the rain. the poem speaks to the spiritual connection between loss and the weather.

the war before breakfast

On 06/04/2025 By n.1In grief, poetryLeave a comment
a poem about the mental exhaustion of depression, comparing it to an unseen war fought before even getting out of bed. includes italicized intrusive thoughts and a sense of losing a battle no one else sees.

closing the door

On 06/04/202506/04/2025 By n.1In grief, poetryLeave a comment
a poem reflecting on grief through the physical remnants left behind by a father—an unburned log, a hat on a workbench, a humming garage radio. the speaker describes these details as quiet echoes of absence before acknowledging that they've finally turned off the lights, hung up the hat, and closed the door.

black hole

On 05/30/2025 By n.1In grief, poetryLeave a comment
a black-and-white poem titled “the black hole” written in lowercase text. the speaker describes feeling stuck in an emotional black hole that devours light, hope, and joy. despite trying to escape, they feel pulled back in, exhausted and tempted to give up. the poem ends with the admission that this time, the black hole wins. the poem is signed “n.1”.

ghost

On 05/30/2025 By n.1In grief, poetryLeave a comment
black text on a white background in a typewriter style font. a poem about fatigue from grief, not the physical fatigue, but a mental fatigue that only the writer can see.

my heart is waiting for you

On 05/29/2025 By n.1In grief, poetryLeave a comment

tattered and tired

On 05/29/2025 By n.1In grief, poetryLeave a comment

thief

On 05/29/2025 By n.1In grief, poetryLeave a comment

i carry your sky with me

On 05/29/2025 By n.1In grief, healing, poetryLeave a comment

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